High School
Hey there my gems,Today is all about a throwback for me, all the way back to High School. I think High School was a really weird mix of awesome and horrible for me, which I honestly believe is what it is for most people. I think one of the things that makes high school so hard for a lot of people is that it's a time where everything matters. Everything is important, from your hairstyle to the color of your shoes. The things people say and do are way over valued and any small issue is the end of the world.
My high school experience was definitely a roller-coaster which involved a lot of different aspects. I dealt with mean girls, changing friend groups, school activities, great memories, etc. I want to highlight that although there were some tough moments, and quite a few of them, there were also a lot of amazing memories and times that I'll cherish forever. I was a student council member, I ran for Vice-president and President, and I was involved in A LOT of volunteering. From senior's tea to talent shows which raised funds for charities, I think my greatest memories definitely come from the volunteering I did.
That said, with the volunteering and the many clubs I was a part of, I think I was also seen as a nerdy type. I definitely felt viewed that way and often looked down on by the "cooler" or "popular" groups. I was made fun of by some and it was honestly mostly just kids being stupid. The insults were thrown around like they were harmless, but they weren't. As I've mentioned in my previous blog "Cry Baby", I take insults and situations very personally and I am very emotional. This was not a good mix in high school, where I cried due to the things that were said to me, but unfortunately I could never hold back the tears, so everyone would see me cry which definitely did not help. I know that there are people who have dealt with much worse, severe bullying and non-stop harassment, and I'm thankful that I didn't have to deal with that, but I also want to underline that not being qualified as "bullied" doesn't mean the words and taunts are any less hurtful.
I can give 99.9% of the credit to surviving high school to my older sister. She was only a year older than me, and kept a close eye on me. If I was crying, she would show up in less than a minute and I still don't know how. She walked right into ongoing classrooms, walked right up to whoever said something mean to me, look them in the eye and said "Talk to my sister like that again and we're gonna have a problem" and then walk right out smiling at the teacher as if nothing happened. I never had that immediate backbone. Even when angry, I wouldn't be able to control my tears no matter how hard I tried. I think anyone who knows me now, knows that, yes I am still very emotional, but people definitely don't mess with me the way they used to. I have a voice and I definitely know how to use it thanks to the amazing role models in my life, like my big sister.
High school is tough. I don't think this is a generational thing, or a me thing. I think it's meant to be tough, challenging, boring and unbearable at times. I think it's important for kids to lean on their families, learn what the meaning of true friendship is, and most of all, know that they can survive anything. If you made it through high school, you can make it through most things. It's a test that lasts years, and one that will teach you more than any class individually.
So soak it all in, look back at it and use those years to move yourself forward.
Talk soon my gems, hope you like today's blog!
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